by Bela Johnson | Aug 3, 2017 | friendship, relationships, suicide, Uncategorized
That strong wiry body she wore like a curse, smiling all the while, nature diffusing her with passion for dun and verdant, fruit and flowers astounding nimble fingers, eyes darting and dancing with delight not reciprocated in a world of humans she tried to forgive as...
by Bela Johnson | Apr 11, 2017 | happiness, lifestyle, musings, philosophy, relationships, Uncategorized
Is it familiar, the aching sentiment when what seemed known becomes assumption and once again melts down, dilutes into watercolor illusion, deceiving like a dramatic heist of the pureness of Being; All feels just until it ceases to be, no more mistaking favor...
by Bela Johnson | Dec 27, 2016 | philosophy, relationships, Uncategorized, writing
All my life I’ve struggled with the spoken word. Anytime I engage in conversation, I’ve got a litany of words streaming through my head, Matrix-like, and must sort through them in order to ensure what I’m about to say lends proper weight, meaning, gravitas. At the...
by Bela Johnson | Dec 20, 2016 | personal, philosophy, psychology, relationships, Uncategorized
Can one provision for events and circumstances unseen, foil against unknown futures? Is preparadness wise, as Girl Scouts and Depression-raised parents tried inculcating, though lessons failed to adhere to a slippery consciousness, ready for life on the edge of a...
by Bela Johnson | Apr 19, 2016 | musings, nature, philosophy, psychology, relationships, Uncategorized
The conflict between doing what is right and what I want no longer exists, bargain made long ago to check impulses back, years after the rebellion. What is it that compels us to harm ourselves and others through the careless daring of youth obsessed with boundaries,...
by Bela Johnson | Apr 5, 2016 | philosophy, psychology, random thoughts, relationships, self awareness, technology, Uncategorized
I believe I understand them now, years into life, no going back to mumble ‘Aha!’ or alter a quip, an eye-roll, internal judgments of the simply humans who brought me into this life; A child knows all, we wax wiser than they, are meant to drive the world forward,...
