by Bela Johnson | Apr 26, 2023 | human interest, personal, perspective, psychology, suicide, Uncategorized
Maybe what he had inside was genius,little freckled boy face, eyes looking outat a world that was senseless at times,the hero father filled with his own demons,no time to self regulate nor a modelto follow, as all boys need, as we all do,and anger, fear and...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 17, 2022 | forgiveness, musings, nature, personal, Uncategorized
Where on earth do I belong?I have taken up space on this orbfor nearly seventy years, manyof these spent in utter confusion,lost to myself, leaving many others to wonder, who is this being?As if I, myself held the answers,aware of my motivations, I did not; And I get...
by Bela Johnson | Apr 18, 2022 | animals, humor, musings, personal, perspective, Uncategorized
I would rather die laughing, even if I am the butt of the joke; Life has too many twists and turns and not enough levity, yet not for lack of instances that might provoke hoots of delight; I remember in college there was a gal who wanted to write about serious things,...
by Bela Johnson | Jan 5, 2022 | growing up, human interest, nature, personal, perspective, Uncategorized
Stay in the distance, watch the light,it is all you need; It is all I ever craved,this meeting with light imbued forms,spirit beings that visited me when young,floating up the canyon, me standingsmall, eagerly awaiting that reunion; The Church would have called...
by Bela Johnson | Nov 23, 2021 | human interest, nature, personal, perspective, philosophy, Uncategorized
There are confusing encountersleaving one gasping for breath,the mind grasping for understanding;such is the nature of life and death,the latter being more recentin my world of experience; I eschew addictions, just as theyare sought to resolve what seemsunfathomable...
by Bela Johnson | May 17, 2021 | consciousness, lifestyle, nature, personal, Uncategorized
My stomach lurches and rises, fallsinto complacency as I ponder eventsof the morning, neighbors meetingand greeting, my outward self effusivewhilst my insides struggle with parity,and such is this life of introversion; I yearn for the human experience,all of it, and I...
