by Bela Johnson | Dec 1, 2025 | self awareness, sovereignty, truth, Uncategorized
There comes a moment in every life,though most never name it,when the soul refuses to go one step furtherin distortion. Mine came quietly, without ceremony.No lightning bolt, no grand gesture.Just the unmistakable knowing thatif I kept living the way I was taught to...
by Bela Johnson | Oct 18, 2025 | healing, humor, process, self awareness
How to take a shirt whose pattern I love but whose size is one smaller than thatI have worn for decades now; swimmer’strapezius giving me a wide-set backmeant for moving great waves of water past,my body cruising, seal-like, through surfwhile my spirit...
by Bela Johnson | Oct 12, 2025 | Field notes, self awareness, Uncategorized, writing, Writing reflection
What have you been putting off doing? Why? Maybe it isn’t procrastination at all, maybe it’s gestation; perhaps I’ve been waiting for the ground inside me to turn soft and loamy; for what once felt like obligation can become devotion again, and this I know; If I have...
by Bela Johnson | Oct 6, 2025 | gardening, nature, relationships, self awareness, transformation, Uncategorized
It’s new, it’s not, the bones remember, though I forgot;another year collapsing into itself like a wavethat folds and folds until the ocean swallows sound; Was I kind enough? Did I hold the ones I lovewithout trying to fix their pain? Or did I burn too...
by Bela Johnson | Oct 3, 2025 | awakening, inspiration, philosophy, self awareness, Uncategorized
If I am never to return to a form once embraced, rejected,explored – I am going to have to live life on purpose,awaken my potential, neither denying the darknessnor the light, but rather growing, albeit too slowly,into something I Am – something authentic...
by Bela Johnson | Sep 26, 2025 | inspiration, nature, relationships, self awareness, transformation, Uncategorized
How many times have I fallen,only to rise again -despite my doubts; How many times have I heardwhispered: not yet…do not give up,do not give in;there is still more to offer; Live long enoughand you begin to recognizethe ebb and flow,the tidal pull of existence;ends...
