by Bela Johnson | Oct 13, 2020 | dreaming, lifestyle, love, musings, personal, philosophy, Uncategorized
The poem that had to be written at two in the morning;was it carried on the wind building force in the night,pushing harder on my head until, evoking surrender,I turn the page and silently push the pencil,watching words forming, shapes curving alongsideone another,...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 2, 2020 | country living, home, lifestyle, nature, photography, Uncategorized
I have spent too many hours marking time, waiting for changes to come, passing precious moments in feckless meandering, spinning wheels, Ariadne in the shadows, balls of twine raveling and lying in a tangled heap at my feet; Now we have arrived, dream fulfilled,...
by Bela Johnson | May 17, 2020 | musings, philosophy, self awareness, Uncategorized
Once in a great while I detect glimpses, sensations, impulses; what it felt like, those intrepid days of youth, out of the house, seeding my own liberation, or so I thought; I could dress up, casting spells upon the dance floor, long wavy auburn hair flowing about me,...
by Bela Johnson | May 9, 2020 | compassion, family, forgiveness, healing, perspective, Uncategorized
Today I posted an apology to my mother, now deceased, on Facebook. Apologized for not being more patient, more understanding; in essence a better daughter. Immediately friends rallied around me, supporting and consoling in these shared reflective times in that way...
by Bela Johnson | May 5, 2020 | COVID-19, musings, nature, patience, perspective, philosophy, Uncategorized
I must keep reminding myself, this is not just about me; nothing I have done or failed to do, it was timing, good or poor, none of us could have predicted just how and when the changes this precious earth needed in order to cleanse herself of one species’...
by Bela Johnson | Apr 17, 2020 | growing up, healing, Uncategorized
Going back into my journals for the first time in years, I discover it’s interesting to note how clearly I perceive things now, compared to 15 years ago. For all those sheltering in isolation with others they are not quite used to being with 24/7, perhaps these...
