by Bela Johnson | Sep 23, 2015 | musings, philosophy, self awareness, Uncategorized
He gives away more than he means to all these years into life, fervently seeking God by whatever name and oh, the misery of a heart chained to romanticism, temptation of forbidden apples, torturous longing. Sometimes I wonder at my own pivoting turns, self-created...
by Bela Johnson | Sep 15, 2015 | love, people, Uncategorized
Desirous of returning, perhaps, furtive glances at the young couple, hands never far from one another, stroking gently and they know, these manatee women, how it changes, that touch, first a small betrayal, feelings far out of proportion to events peculiar to youth...
by Bela Johnson | Sep 1, 2015 | musings, philosophy, self awareness, spirituality, Uncategorized
When did women learn the soul bashing false humility of self abnegation? When did men first crush hearts into emotional valises, compartmental corruption of the tender qualities that endear them to us? We are free. And if we are not liberated, forgetfulness is the...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 11, 2015 | friends, philosophy, Uncategorized
I will not flatter you with fiction meant to prop up a flagging ego, you are far grander than that and anyway, you stand deservedly in the light of my admiration. Let us rather march resolutely through the sucking mud and debris of authentic attempts at bridging...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 4, 2015 | lifestyle, nature, philosophy, Uncategorized
Leaving mountains and concrete and pollution, confusion and mayhem beyond management, I was eighteen and moving far away from small minds and big noises, ignorance of the intelligent forsaken for silence of trees and waters and loss of language. Not where I was...
by Bela Johnson | Jul 28, 2015 | family, philosophy, self awareness, Uncategorized
I know this nonchalance you speak of, a kind of half-blaming, half-devoted confusion of youth. Must be a mother-daughter thing meant to break hearts open like sorrow or ecstasy; a mixed plate from Pandora’s kitchen, perspective being all as I know now, having had...
