by Bela Johnson | Aug 25, 2015 | lifestyle, philosophy, poetry, popular culture, psychology
To have existed is not enough, importance placed elsewhere in a culture where life itself holds little value; She searches, flailing frantically, coming socially unhinged, unsure of any positive contribution now, before, future colliding kaleidoscopically on a...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 19, 2015 | love, philosophy, spirituality, suicide, words
She wanted to end her life, this was It. Thousands of times before repeating and repeating requests unheard, the heart of the matter. What is life worth if not embracing paradox; anything less is negating its own terms, non-negotiable. Acceptance is, perhaps, what we...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 11, 2015 | friends, philosophy, Uncategorized
I will not flatter you with fiction meant to prop up a flagging ego, you are far grander than that and anyway, you stand deservedly in the light of my admiration. Let us rather march resolutely through the sucking mud and debris of authentic attempts at bridging...
by Bela Johnson | Aug 4, 2015 | lifestyle, nature, philosophy, Uncategorized
Leaving mountains and concrete and pollution, confusion and mayhem beyond management, I was eighteen and moving far away from small minds and big noises, ignorance of the intelligent forsaken for silence of trees and waters and loss of language. Not where I was...
by Bela Johnson | Jul 28, 2015 | family, philosophy, self awareness, Uncategorized
I know this nonchalance you speak of, a kind of half-blaming, half-devoted confusion of youth. Must be a mother-daughter thing meant to break hearts open like sorrow or ecstasy; a mixed plate from Pandora’s kitchen, perspective being all as I know now, having had...
