The garden waits,
its pulse separate from mine—
a thousand roots threading through
their own decisions.

I have pruned too much,
watered from lack of rain,
guarded what would have
done better left alone.

Too much,
even when well intentioned,
is still too much.

Now, I watch the kale bolt,
the papaya’s thin trunks leaning
toward the light, the self-seeded
oregano flowering without
a care in the world.

Everything knows what it’s doing.
Even the dying has its place.

I bow to this unmanaged wisdom,
and, after feeling at first like I could have,
should have done more, in the end,
feel the relief of not being in charge.

Christmas cactus ~ 2025 bj